The Blueprints to the Disaster I have Created...

I've noticed a pattern in my life. Whenever I am given something or buy something, like a video game for example, I feel like I must conquer it. I enjoy it to its fullest extent, and then I trade it back in for something new. I hate this pattern in my life, and there are so many things that I wish I hadn't tried to "conquer." I want to learn how to slow down and appreciate what I have, and grow fonder of what I have with everyday. What I've learned is that if you rush through something great you have the tendency to miss a lot of the good parts because, you're way too focused on getting to the ending.

I am pretty upset with myself today. I have been living my life in patterns, and I am so sick of it. The patterns that have been established in my life are hurting the only people I care about, and I need to break these habits. I don't try to live the way I do...I just need to learn how to slow down, and not take the things I have in life for granted. I am such an idiot for not being careful with the things God has put in my life, and I don't tolerate myself being stupid. The only thing I can do today is seek the Lord and ask for His forgiveness. I need Jesus in my life so badly right now...I just need Him to hold me.

~Matt~
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Today I have nothing better to do than read my Bible, pray, and write on my blog. So, that is what I'll do. I am being reminded today that the love of God is unconditional, and even though I have been dishonoring my Holy Father with my actions...He still loves me.

Some verses that I have read today:
1Co. 10:23-24
Song of Solomon 2:7
Prov. 3:5-6
Mt. 22:37
Mt. 5:8
Is. 30:20-21
Eccl. 3:1-9
Ps. 91
Ps. 23
Jude 1:17-23
Rev. 4:8-11
Eph. 3:14-21
1Co 13: 4-13