Empty...

Today I feel like an empty glass in the middle of a desert. I'm longing to be filled, but I know that it would't help today because, I'm still in a desert. I need someone to come along and carry me out this awful place because I'm slowly dying, and I ache inside. I am the one who walked into this awful desert, and I've realized now that I'm in the middle that I do not have the strength to get myself out.

Right now, I need Jesus in a way that I have never understood before. I have been trying learn as much as I can about Him, and in the process of my study, I forgot to spend quality time with Him. I can honestly say that Jesus is my best friend, and every day that I don't spend time with Him is miserable. I am so broken today.

My heart has been shattered into a million pieces, and I realize that it is completely my fault. I dragged one of the most precious things to me through the mud, and didn't respect their value. I thought that I knew what I was doing. I thought that I knew what God ws telling me, and I thought that I was strong. I was wrong...I was wrong, I was wrong, I was wrong! And now I'm broken, I'm hurting, and I'm confused. All because I was not obedient to my Father. I will not ever let that happen again. Because Jesus has found me in this desert, and He will get me out.

-Matt-