Who am I to you?

Today I was thinking, and I had an extraordinary thought (or at least it intrigued me). So I've decided to write about it because, I believe it's easier to figure things out when I can see them on paper, or a computer screen in this case. It may seem like a common place issue, but today I was talking to a good friend of mine over dinner (you know who you are). We were talking about different people that we know/knew/thought we knew, and I started wondering what people say about me when they talk about me, or if they even talk about me at all. I honestly have no clue what people think of me, and for the longest time I really haven't cared. Or maybe I just pretended to not care. I can't imagine what people would have to say about me; especially with as much as I've changed in the past year. I suppose a large group of people would still say that I'm a jerk, and that I treated them like crap because I did, and for that I apologize. Another group may say that I'm nothing more than an arrogant jock; which was true at one point in time. On the other hand, there may be people that see me as a role-model, or as a loyal friend because, at times, I think I was that as well. Then there are the people who've known me over the past year that I hope would say, "Wow, you've changed a lot, and I can see God in you." That above all else is what I want people to talk about when they talk about who I am. I can't change who I was in the past, and I wouldn't want too. My past has made me into who I am today. It has shown me the importance of having complete faith in Jesus, and how good He is. I guess what I realized today is that while I'm sitting with my friends talking about people I know. I need to be careful because, they talk about me to, and I have no right to judge people becuase I am no better than they are. In fact, I may actually be worse. So, to conclude this jumbled thought of mine I'd like to say this: Let's be careful in the way we talk about other people; especially when we call some of them our friends. We have no right to judge. The final say is up to God. Lets just love one another as we love ourselves because, I don't often here myself or anybody else rag on themselves the way most of us rag on our friends.

-Matt-