"Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing" (James 1:2-4 NASB).
This has been my theme verse this week. The past week or so, I have been facing some serious trials. I wont get specific, but basically, Satan has been feeding me lies, and has been causing me to doubt myself and others. It has been as though I've had a weight on my shoulders for the past week or two, and it was wearing me down to the point where I was on the brink of making some very poor decisions. However, God is very good. He came through when I needed Him the most. On Tuesday night I was at maybe the lowest point I've been at for some time. I was bitter about things for no reason, my family was treating me like I'm a moron, and I felt really sick. I skipped work on Wednesday because I was still sick from the night before, but skipping work didn't make me feel any better. I was still worrying about things, and was skeptical about others. I was forming bogus ideas about people in my head that I knew weren't true, and was extremely stressed out. It wasn't until I got home from work on Thursday afternoon that I realized how badly I needed to spend some time with God. So, I grabbed my running shoes, and went out the door. I argued with God for close to 3 miles before I nearly collapsed of exhaustion; now that I look back on it, that was a stupid thing to do on a 96 degree day, but it was worth it. In that moment of exhaustion I felt lighter, stronger, and more energetic than I had felt in a week. I felt the presence of God flowing through me again, and realized how stupid I had been for trying to live life on my own. No matter how physically or mentally strong I may be; I am hardly anything compared to God...So from now on I'm letting Him make the decisions.
-Matt-
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