Ok, so I decided to create a new blog because of some convenience issues. The new URL is:
http://www.mattroop.blogspot.com
Unfortunately it will not allow me to manage this blog under the new email address. So, I will post a link on here to the new blog, and a link on the new blog to here. That way, if I make a reference to an old blog post you'll still be able to read them. I have a lot of copying and pasting to do...I want all these to be in word documents...ugh.
Friday, February 06, 2009
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
Recent Revelations...
Ok, since the Sunday before last, God has been showing me things about my life that I never thought possible, and that I still don't completely understand. My is not to make predictions about my future; but rather, my goal is to explain what God has been showing me, and to let you know how I feel about it.
I went to a new church two Sudays ago and I don't think I'll ever go back, but the experience was definitly a good one. The pastor talked that Sunday about the walls we build in our lives that keep us from from doing God's will. I went home that afternoon feeling very challenged, and that night I spent a long time on my knees talking to God about the walls that I had built. The highest wall in my life is the fear of failing. My fear of failure has kept me from doing God's will for quite some time, and I am positive that it is the reason why God has waited until now to show me the things that He has shown me this week.
The following Monday morning I felt lead to start praying about marriage. I thought it was odd that God would ask me to pray about marriage right now since I've committed myself to singleness for this next year, but I started praying anyways. I started by praying first that God would prepare me and my future wife both spiritually and mentally for marriage (something I used to do every day and wish I had never stopped), and then I prayed for God's timing as well. That was the tricky one for me because, in my mind I already had an idea of when I thought I would be prepared to get married. I've had this idea that I needed to have a degree and a steady job indoctrinated into my mind by so many people, and I bought into that idea. I mean, it seems like the practical and intelligent thing to do, but God told me no this week. God told me last wednesday, and then confirmed it in my mind again on Monday night, through an article I read, that I do not need to have a degree or a full time job to be married (even though both would be nice). Going back to what I said before, my fear of failure has kept me from trusting God with every area of my life. And my fear of failing financially within the confines of marriage is something that absolutely terrifies me. God reminded me this week that as long as I trust Him and honor Him with my life He will provide everything that I need. I guess it's kind of sad that I forgot how much God provides since I get to see how much He provides for my family every day. God has made it very clear to me that I need this year to prepare myself for marriage, and beyond that I don't think I should say much more right now. God is good and I am so thankful for all that He is revealing to me right now, and I am so excited about what the future holds. I'll be writing more on this later because there is so much more to this, but right now I don't think it would be wise for me to share too many details.
It's just exciting to me too know that God is moving inside of me and has amazing plans for me.
~Matt
I went to a new church two Sudays ago and I don't think I'll ever go back, but the experience was definitly a good one. The pastor talked that Sunday about the walls we build in our lives that keep us from from doing God's will. I went home that afternoon feeling very challenged, and that night I spent a long time on my knees talking to God about the walls that I had built. The highest wall in my life is the fear of failing. My fear of failure has kept me from doing God's will for quite some time, and I am positive that it is the reason why God has waited until now to show me the things that He has shown me this week.
The following Monday morning I felt lead to start praying about marriage. I thought it was odd that God would ask me to pray about marriage right now since I've committed myself to singleness for this next year, but I started praying anyways. I started by praying first that God would prepare me and my future wife both spiritually and mentally for marriage (something I used to do every day and wish I had never stopped), and then I prayed for God's timing as well. That was the tricky one for me because, in my mind I already had an idea of when I thought I would be prepared to get married. I've had this idea that I needed to have a degree and a steady job indoctrinated into my mind by so many people, and I bought into that idea. I mean, it seems like the practical and intelligent thing to do, but God told me no this week. God told me last wednesday, and then confirmed it in my mind again on Monday night, through an article I read, that I do not need to have a degree or a full time job to be married (even though both would be nice). Going back to what I said before, my fear of failure has kept me from trusting God with every area of my life. And my fear of failing financially within the confines of marriage is something that absolutely terrifies me. God reminded me this week that as long as I trust Him and honor Him with my life He will provide everything that I need. I guess it's kind of sad that I forgot how much God provides since I get to see how much He provides for my family every day. God has made it very clear to me that I need this year to prepare myself for marriage, and beyond that I don't think I should say much more right now. God is good and I am so thankful for all that He is revealing to me right now, and I am so excited about what the future holds. I'll be writing more on this later because there is so much more to this, but right now I don't think it would be wise for me to share too many details.
It's just exciting to me too know that God is moving inside of me and has amazing plans for me.
~Matt
Tuesday, February 03, 2009
My Motion Picture Problem...
This post is for the sole purpose of telling you that I have decided not to make my list of movies; however, I will be watching a lot of older movies. The reason I have decided to do this is that I am going on a sort of "movie fast"(an idea I drew from "The Bravehearted Gospel). I'm not cutting movies completely out the picture, but I am going to be cutting a lot of my favorites out of my life because of the thoughts and feelings they cause within me. If I am going to honor God with every aspect of my life I must guard my thoughts, and reviewing movies does not build me up in my spiritual life so I am giving them up for now.
~Matt
P.S. This isn't really what I wanted to write today, but the topic I would like to talk about is something I need to think about and pray about more before I think I'll be ready to share my opinion on it. So, stay tuned, and sorry for the "cop-out" post.
P.P.S. If you can make it through the 4 hours...Ben-Hur is an amazing movie. Really cool movie with an absolutely wonderful ending. =)
~Matt
P.S. This isn't really what I wanted to write today, but the topic I would like to talk about is something I need to think about and pray about more before I think I'll be ready to share my opinion on it. So, stay tuned, and sorry for the "cop-out" post.
P.P.S. If you can make it through the 4 hours...Ben-Hur is an amazing movie. Really cool movie with an absolutely wonderful ending. =)
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